Is what i drank last night. Had a really good night. Went over to the guys' house first for drinking games then a taxi to good ole Oceana. Leeds has pretty much shut down since the uni went home last week. What about everyone at Leeds Met!!?? Only the main room was open in Oceana and it wasn't that busy really. Did some dancing around like a goon. Had most of the fun with my housemate VM. One housemate went home when she discovered there was to be no R&B room, another had a row with her boyfriend and went home. That left 3 of us. One then pulled some guy so just me and VM left to represent! We took about a million photos. Finally left at 2am. Tried to get a pizza but all our usual takeaway were shut! Like Leeds Met students don't want takeaway at 3am?? Managed to get a pizza from somewhere we've never ordered from before. It was pretty shit really. I still managed to eat 3 slices of it though.

I rang the Boyf to say i'd got home safe and VM's boyfriend started shouting and my Boyf got mad for some reason and I think he's angry with me today. He can't text or ring me because his phone's been cut off. This means i have to wait til he's done at work to call him see if he's still mad. *sigh*

I also have that damn essay to finish and submit today. My head is swimming so will be a bit of a chore to focus.

Might go back to sleep for a bit.

I keep hearing one of my housemates shagging her boyfriend. It's so awful. It's not him that makes the noise, it's her which makes me want to cut my ears off. It's all Oohs and Ahhs and disgusting loud panting. All of my other housemates have heard it too. She doesn't seem to care or realise we can all hear it. She's really loud!
The worst part of it is he is totally gross looking. The thought of him shagging anything let alone my friend makes me feel sick. BLARGH! Another thing is i've seen his cock and it's tiny like a button mushroom. She must be acting because there's no way that tiny thing would make anyone make noises like that. URGH. Oh god i wish i hadn't heard it. They know i'm in because i put music on to drown it out. Have some respect for my ears people!
I'd just like to point out that i'm not a prude and all up for anyone having a good time but not when i can hear it when i'm trying to eat my Rice Crispies! Or when i'm trying to sleep at night. Or when i'm trying to write an essay. Seriously they are like rabbits.
I miss my Boyf

I've managed to tear myself away from cosy clean flat, Boyf and kittens and i'm now back in Leeds in my student house. I got up to about 2300 words last night when i gave in. I'm going to attempt to finish it by tomorrow night. Tonight i want to get up to 3000 words then i can't start whittling away at the waffle. Phew.
I don't feel ill or tired today thank god. Although i may soon get ill because everyone on the train was sniffing and coughing and generally sounding gross. I was so paranoid about the germs flying around. *shudders*.
It's really quiet here in student land. My street is normally rammed with cars but it's looking pretty empty. Where have all the students gone? Home probably. My uni finishes a week later than Leeds Uni. *sigh*.
Wish my essay was done and i was home with the Boyf. Well no point thinking like that or i'll get all sad. Off i go now to unpack and get the books out.
xx

I'm on near as damn it 2000 words now. I'm confident only a small percentage of it is waffle which i will weed out later on in the week. I've included some salient points and my list of references is now 5 strong. I have a HUGE amount of amazing journal articles that i've found to put in and reference now. This will earn me major brownie points as my tutor bums journals and the referencing of them.
I feel i should try to get up to 3000 words tonight if i can, then when i go back to uni tomorrow i can weed out the waflle and put in some more points from the books that i've left there. Phew.
Feeling a bit better about life now that i've managed to write something.
I haven't eaten the chocolate yet, going to save it til after dinner.
Ok, hopefully when i blog later it will be to say i have reached the 3000 word mark. Wish me luck!!
x

I have just received a text message from my housemate saying that she is sick of essays and feels like she is getting nowhere.
Phew! I feel better knowing someone else is despairing about uni work. Today i've done NOTHING. I just can't face starting it. I will have to in a minute because i really want to get a good mark. It won't write itself!
I've managed to get dressed and put on a full face of makeup which has made me feel loads better. I've barely worn any all weekend which is so not like me!
I've got a chocolate bar to eat when i've written some more words.
I'm not one of these people who will leave an essay til the night before it's due in. I've been researching for this one for about 2 weeks and i started writing it last week. It's just i really want it to be quality which takes time. I find it so hard to start! *sigh*.
Ok i'm going to get my notes out and hopefully write something now. I'll report back later.
x

This weekend I have been zombified. I don't know what's going on but yesterday I didn't wake up till 2pm! Well I did wake up at 11.30am but was so so tired that I went back to sleep. On Saturday I woke up and got up at 10am. I was so tired that I laid down on the bed in all my clothes and fell asleep from 12 noon till 2.30pm! Today i woke up at 11.50am. My god.
I don't know whether this is because i went out 2 nights in a row last week. I hope not or i'm flippin rubbish. Maybe sleeping is easier than waking up and doing uni work. I might be secretly stressed. I don't feel stressed. So today I was going to go back to Leeds and work on my essay which is in on Thursday. Instead I think i'll stay in Notts and work on it here. I can't face getting ready, packing and getting on 2 trains and a bus.
I wrote 1500 words yesterday so only another 1500 to go.
I can go back to Leeds tomorrow.
Maybe i'm not well, I'd better stock up on vitamins today. I'd better not get ill for xmas! i haven't been ill in months. Dammit.

The Boyf made me get up this morning so I could do uni work whilst he took his van to the garage. God i'm so tired! I haven't done any work yet. Just been watching Friends and pottering around. I could have done with about 4 hours more sleep. I went out Thursday and Wednesday night and think it might be catching up with me today. An added factor to the tiredness is i was at work yesterday when really i wanted to be sleeping.
For some reason when i got in from clubbing on Thurs night, I couldn't sleep. When i did finally drop off i woke up at 6am and was awake for over an hour. Really weird. I don't know whether it might be to do with caffeine in coke. I did drink quite a few with bacardi in.
We didn't go to bed last night til well after 1am. So today i am zombie girl. I look awful. I guess i'd better go sort my face out, eat something, get the uni books out now. I really REALLY want to go back to bed. Maybe i'll just have a nap later. Yes i think i will........

Just enjoying my first mince pie of the season. Yum. Well i'm trying to enjoy it but the kittens are all up in my face trying to get a lick. God they are exhausting!
Have done quite a lot of uni work this afternoon. Just had a quick half hour break where i did some tidying up and joy of joys scrubbed out the kitty litter tray. It was lovely and clean but as soon as i put the new litter in, BOTH of the kitties got in it and did a big wee each side by side *sigh*.
The house is looking nice and tidy now. Lets hope it stays this way til the Boyf gets home. I've even done a load of washing today. Domestic goddess i am.
Yum that pie was well nice. Will have to buy a box for xmas but as the Boyf doesn't like them it will be up to me to eat them all and then i'll probably feel sick. Blargh.
x

Our new kittens are driving me insane today. They are constantly climbing in the christmas tree and scratching at the presents underneath it. According to the kitten book i'm supposed to say "NO" in a stern voice and that is enough. Well i can tell you that it doesn't work. I've had to move the gifts into the wardrobe because they are ripping the paper off! They are obviously having a mad hour and i can't wait for them to settle down. I've shut them out of the living room because it gets impossible to type. Crazy cats!! They follow me around all day and are in everything. They are so cute though.

But the Boyf is taking a nap and we don't have any dinner materials in the flat. I think i'm gonna buy tortellini and a quality beef burger from Sainsbury's. *drools*
Some of you may recall that over the summer i was on a diet. That has totally gone out of the window since i started back at uni. Ho hum. To be fair i haven't gained any weight i've just got the ring of fat back round my stomach. Dammit. I'm not really bothered. Have decided it's back on the healthy eating plan when i finish in May so i can be fit for my Florida holiday in September. I'm crapping myself about wearing a bikini. I've not worn one in public since i was 18. Thats 7 years people. Holy shit.
Anyway, i'm going to wake up sleeping beauty now and drag him out to the shops. I need feeding and i need feeding NOW!!

x

Time is actually flying by for me at the moment. I'm just so busy all the time.
The party on Tuesday night was an amazing success. I guess about 50 people came which was cool. The vodka jelly I made disappeared in seconds and everyone enjoyed it. The sangria was really juicy and tasty. We got to meet one side of our neighbours. Had an interesting tour of their house. They pay £5 a week more than we do and i have to say there house is bloody awful. We have a kitchen and bathroom in our cellar, they have a derelict dungeon style space. *shudders* Their house was like a parallel spooky version of ours.
The party went on til about 3am, I crashed out just after 2.
Wednesday was pretty much a wasted day for me. I had a pretty bad hangover and the house was absolutely disgusting. The smell of beer still hasn't gone. We cleaned and cleaned but nothing can be done about our manky living room carpet. It took ages to dry out from all the spillages. Gross.
Yesterday was much more productive. I managed to get quite a bit of uni work done. There is still an absolute mountain to be done by January though. Trying not to stress about it because then my brain seizes up and i can't write anything.
Today I'm going home to The Boyf and our two kittens. We are going to put the xmas tree up tonight. I'm going to have to do a lot of work this weekend which i bet he won't be happy about but it can't be helped. Also i'm working tomorrow day in the pub because i'm so desperate for money. Busy busy!
Eek the wind outside is freaking me out. I'm kind of scared to go out in it! Better go shower now and pack ready to get the train at 2pm. Journey of doom here i come again. It's becoming a bit much all this travelling back and forwards. Will be glad when i live in one place not 3.
bye for now xx

It's all been very industrious in my uni house this evening. Not with uni work mind, with making mix CD's! We are having a house party tomorrow night in honour of my housemate's 21st birthday. We've been shopping and loaded a trolly with booze, mixers, fairy lights, paper cups, streamers, balloons etc. The last thing left to do was make some CD's. It was so much fun. I can't wait to dance around the living room to them. We've moved the furniture around, hoovered and strung up some fairy lights. The living room actually looks pretty cool. It all kicks off at 8pm where we'll be sat nervously waiting for our guests to arrive. We've not had a house party before. I had one in my first year which was shit. About a million people came and i knew about 5 of them. They messed up the house and ate all my food. Hopefully tomorrow won't be a repeat of this. No Skins party thank you! I'm making Vodka jelly which i'm excited for. Better go to bed now, got a meeting with my tutor at 11am so need sleep.
Goodnight and party on people. x

I mean that in a sarcastic way.
I have been asking my Dad if he can help me out with uni costs for the past month. Yesterday he texted me saying he will give me some money for christmas to which I replied "so that means i have to spend my xmas money on food and bills?". So he called me. Now before i go into this in more detail the major point here is that since my parents divorced when i was 8, my Dad has not contributed a bean to my upbringing. He's never paid child support and he's never helped my Mum out with uni costs. Actually i'm pretty sure i've blogged about this before!
Last night i actually told him that i feel like he doesn't support me and it's not the amount of money he could give me, it's the gesture that's important. He then proceeded to ramble on about how my mum earns more money, he hasn't got any money blah blah. This annoyed me. My dad does have a job and he earns a normal wage. My mum has worked so hard to get a good job and she has literally been threadbare when we were growing up so that we could go on school trips, have shoes etc. My dad pisses his money away in the pub and the bookies. Just last week he couldn't give my sister any birthday money because he had lost £200 betting!! The thing that has annoyed and upset me the most is that by the time the phone convo had ended, i felt guilty for making my dad feel bad! He was also drunk which pissed me off even more. After he spoke to me, he rang my younger sister and cried down the phone to her about what i'd said to him. Then he sent me messages saying "love you" and "more than you will ever know" when i didn't reply. Talk about emotional blackmail!! I rang my mum and she told me to switch my phone off and ignore him. Which i did. I cried a bit though.
This is the end for now. i can't be arsed with him. My mum said she is lucky because she could divorce him, unfortunately for us we are stuck with him.

The Boyf got out of bed and abandoned me at 9am this morning to go blast his truck with his new pressure washer. I'm now sat all alone about to start some uni work. On a saturday! That's dedication for you.
I also need to go christmas shopping today as this weekend is the last time i'll see my family until after christmas. They are all jetting off to St Lucia on holiday. I was invited but declined as my mum is instead going to give me my share of St Lucia money for my Florida holiday next autumn. I can't believe i'm not going with them. Therefore i have to get them gifts today. I don't really have any money. In fact i've just checked and i have £250 of my overdraft left to last me until Jan 8th. Impossible. Not sure what to do. I will have to budget myself to a tenner a gift. Rubbish. What a depressing thought. No money to go out partying. No money for christmas party outfits. I could work i guess but it's actually soul destroying at the pub at the minute so i really would rather be skint. It's not like i'm going to starve to death. I'm sure someone will step up and buy me a can of beans if it got that serious. Haha.
Well i'd better go wash the sleep out of my eyes and start an essay. *sigh*
xx

Thursday night my housemates and I were all tucked up in our beds sound asleep. I was woken up by the doorbell ringing. I rolled over and ignored it but then it rang some more. And some more, over and over and OVER! I looked at the clock - 4am!! Now I was angry, I had a lecture in the morning and wanted a good night's sleep. So I storm out of bed in my pants and vest and scream down to the front door - "WHO THE FUCK IS THAT!!!!!" to which i get the reply - "police". I am confused by this so go and put some pj bottoms on. At this point all of my housemates are awake and gathering on the landing looking sleepy, confused and annoyed. I tell them apparently it's the police and so we go to answer the door. Indeed it was the police (now i feel bad for swearing). They are looking for some guy that we've never heard of. "We're a student house and have lived here for two years, 5 girls" I manage to tell them. They show us a picture of some guy that's supposed to live here and none of us have ever seen him before. After about 5 minutes they leave telling us he's obviously given a false address and they'll make sure noone bothers us again.
I was awake for AGES after that. They must have been coming to arrest the guy. 4am!! Blimey. I can't believe i swore at the police. I thought it was drunk students ringing the bell for a joke. It's a good job i didnt throw water out of my window!

Yes I am still alive. I haven't been on here in a very long time. This is because my cat died and I was so upset that I couldn't bring myself to blog about it. I didn't want to write about it and it was such a major thing that happened that I felt I couldn't write about my life and not mention the cat. My cat was only 2 and suddenly got ill. We rushed him to the vet but it was too late. That's all I'm going to about it or I will start crying.
Another major factor in the lack of blogging is uni work. 3rd year is hard! It's pretty full on and I kept thinking that if i spend time writing on here, it's less time spent working on assignments etc.
So, I hope all my blogging friends are well and later on i will spend time reading what you have all been up to in my absence. As for now i've got a ton of work to do so i must dash make a start on some of it.
Bye for now, i will return soon i promise xx

I got up at 10am today to make a start on my uni work which has to be in this Friday. It's been 4 hours and so far I have only come up with my title. AAARGHH!
To be fair the title part is actually very difficult. Now I have to assemble a project plan with goals and objectives and a fucking Gantt Chart of how my project will be organised until January. I have just discovered i don't have the bloody software on my PC to produce the chart and i really can't be arsed to trek to the library to get the disk today. It's cold out there and i have virtually no makeup on.

Also it's Wednesday which is going out night and i have said to myself i'm not going out because i have work to do but for some reason i'm itching to start fake-tanning just in case. I don't even WANT to go out. I'm just worried that i'll get the urge at about 6pm and i'll be pale as a sheet. What a stress! Must focus.

Ok, here goes. I will start my project plan, leave the Gantt chart 'til tomorrow and fake tan in a min just in case.

Swoosh was the sound of me running through the park last night. I really liked it! To be fair we didn't go really fast, more of a steady jog. There was quite a long uphill section that we did without stopping though. Feel really proud of myself for going out there in the cold and dark and trying my best. My ass really hurt when we were running! I thought it was the most toned part of me - obviously not! I swear it shouldn't bounce up and down like that. I will be monitoring my ass bouncing as a measurement of it toning up - haha. Not stiff at all today which is surprising. I think i can push to go a bit faster next time.
As we were running through a field we came across a burning car! It had obviously just gone up because it was burning like crazy. The fire engines were just arriving and it was hilarious because we were running past it off into the night like we were the arsonists! Got scared incase the firemen came after us!
So in short, running IS for me! Wow.

Of course i'm lying. This is actually Fearne Cotton. Looking a bit like me! Weird....
Thought i'd post this because i'm loving people comparing me to her! It happened again today when some guy at uni said i reminded him of her. Spooky! Maybe one day i'll be brave and post an actual pic of me so you guys can compare. haha x

Yes in approx 1 hour i'm going RUNNING around a park with my 2 friends from uni. I have never before in my life been running besides at school. My running friends are identical twins and they both have well hot bodies! They eat quite shit but say they go running 3 nights a week so it's obviously working for them. It should be fun but i'm worried i'll be really unfit and upset myself at how crap i am. It could go the other way and i could run like that wind! Who knows. I haven't been back to the gym since i started at uni and i keep eating takeaway late at night after going out so i need to up the metabolism a bit. I don't want to go out there in the cold in unflatering gym clothes but if i want to eat pizza at 3am i'd better do something.
So wish me luck that i can do it and don't fall over or something stupid.

I'm actually at my proper home today or "my Mum's" as i should call it seeing as i have kind of moved out. Noone is here though as they have apparently bobbed off on holiday again without telling me.
I'm here because the Boyf is doing some electrical work in the living room. I thought i'd do some uni work whilst i'm here but have hit a block because my family's lovely new computer doesn't have MS Word on it. Rubbish. So now i have to wait whilst i download a free trial version so i can open the lecture notes that i want to print off. Sigh.
The house is pretty much the same. My room is looking very sad without me in it. My middle sister has done her best to fill my wardrobes with her crap. My littlest sister is blatently loving letting her friends sleep over in my bed. I keep finding sweet wrappers in it. It's a bit of a mad house really. I can almost see the Boyf's brain spazzing out when he walks in here. My family are not bothered about too many rules or cleaning up all the time. Don't get me wrong, my house isn't dead dirty or anything but we have a comfortable amount of mess. I like it. It's homely and laid back. You don't have to wash the pots up all the time or stuff like that. Just do it when you want to or leave it if you can't be arsed. Definitely the way i like to live.
My upbringing definitely causes most of the fall-outs between the Boyf and I as he lived with stringent rules and chores and i didn't. This means he has brought this level of tidyiness and order into his adult life and i haven't! I don't want to either. I think life's too short for cleaning all the time. If you want to slide down the stairs in sleeping bags and bounce on your bed when you're a child then you should be allowed to! My childhood was well fun. Toys everywhere and never had to tidy up. Brilliant. I wish the Boyf's dad hadn't been so hard on him. Now he makes it hard on me when i leave stuff around in the flat!
We did have some rules. If my sisters and i ever were rude or badly behaved then it was smackdown time from my mum and we never did it again! We were punished for important stuff, not for not making our beds or leaving our toys out.
Ahh i miss being a kid!

I caved in and put on some make-up.

Foundation
Blemish concealer
Under-eye concealer
Yves St Laurent Touche Eclat (yes ANOTHER concealer)
Face powder on my eyelids (prevents creasing)
Black liquid eyeliner
Black mascara
Eyebrow shadow (mine are too blonde)
High Beam (highlighter)
Blusher

Lip gloss or just balm

Phew! This is me scaling it down. Up until 6 months ago i used to wear eyeshadow which took an absolute age to blend. The eyeliner is way quicker.

If i'm just dashing out to the shop for milk i might skip the foundation and just use concealer and mascara.

Today i have been good and just put 1 kind of concealer around my eyes and one coat of mascara. I feel like i look like a dog though. I need to leave my skin out to breathe today. I don't have acne or anything but my poor chin gets real spotty.
I honestly think i look hideous without slap on. Blech.
I can't look that bad or people would run screaming from the room when i walked in. The Boyf sees me all the time without make-up on because i always take it off before bed. He says i look the same without it. Liar but he must really love me!

I'm keeping my PJ's on all day today. I plan to stay here in the lounge and study it up so that i can go out tonight and feel that i've earned the right to party. I don't need to leave the house today. Don't have any lectures and i went food shopping yesterday so don't need anything to eat. This means i can give my face a rest from make-up until tonight. Have got a stupid zit appearing on my chin so need to keep applying spot stuff in the hope it'll go down for later. Gross!
I may need to pop out and buy some vodka but will wait until the cover of darkness so can go before i start putting my party face on.
Right off i go to write some notes. Bye for now!
xx

Well not a huge amount of time, but nearly a week since i last blogged.
Here's what's been going on:

I am a crap finalist. I woke up when my alarm went off but there was no hope. I was still drunk or something and had to stay in bed. So i missed my 9am lecture. Managed to drag myself in to uni for my 11 o'clock so not too naughty. Now i have to go online and read the lecture notes that i missed. Got a headache and my eyes hurt.
Had fun last night though.

I'm going out tonight and tomorrow i have a lecture 9-10 then 11-12. I have never in my uni life been out the night before and managed to make it in to a 9am lecture. I HAVE to go tomorrow. This is 3rd year - serious stuff. I just checked to see if there was another slot for the same lecture that i could go to but no. I'll be interested to see how many other people turn up. Up until now the lecture theatre has been packed.
I have 2 examples of me getting up for work after a night out.
The first is me walking to work so hungover that i actually fell over in the road, got mud all over my trousers and grazed my leg so badly that i LIMPED for the rest of the day.
The second is me forcing down a biscuit on my tea break sat with my boss only to realise it was definitely coming back up. I told her this to which she replied "I'll shut the office door" as she left the room. I was then sick in the office toilet like BLAAAAAARGH! My boss was a legend and wasn't mad at me. She did make me stay for the rest of my shift which is only fair seeing as it was self-inflicted.
So, it doesn't bode well for tomorrow. I think i might try drinking water after 1am.
I hope i don't have to run out the lecture to be sick. I'd better sit near the aisle.

Today i had my first tutorial in "Online Communities". The assesment is all based on a blog which i have to keep on the university website!! A BLOG! How cool is that!! I also have to be a member of about 6 online communities (already am!) and talk about social networking sites (i LOVE these) etc. I should get a first in this or i really will be disappointed in myself.  I can't believe the asessment is a blog. Amazing. I'm so excited to get into this module. Other people in the class didn't even know what a blog was so i have a clear advantage over them. This also means that when i'm on here i'm actually contributing towards my degree! Haha. Guilt free blogging. No more worrying that i should be doing uni work instead of being on here. Brill.

I started back properly at uni yesterday. I arrived at my first tutorial and i didn't know ANYONE in it! I sat on my own like a loser thinking how come everyone else seems to know someone but me?  Luckily a girl who i practically never spoke to from last year but who i know by sight walked in and i waved her over. She looked relieved to see me as she also didn't know anyone.
I have 2 more tutorials and a lecture today. I really hope i know people in these ones. It's not nice being a third year and feeling like a first year. I don't know why the powers that be have totally split up our group from last year but they have. It doesn't seem to have happened to other groups as they all have friends in tutorials.
Well i'd better go get ready now. Will put my most approachable face on and pray i make a new friend today!

Today on the train back to Leeds the tannoy man on the train kept banging on about the smoking ban in train stations. At one station he said that smoking was not allowed anywhere including the far extremities of the platform and to remember "although you may feel like you are outside - you ARE NOT! This is the workplace of British Transport and so smoking is not allowed here".
Enough all-fucking-ready!! We know there is a bloody smoking ban!
At Leeds station he also told us that we are not allowed to smoke on the footpath outside the station! As if!! That is outside and excuse me but i thought the ban included places that had 3 walls. You could argue that the pavement is the workplace of policemen/street