Wow, a lot has happened since I last wrote on here. My last post was about getting ready to go out. Just after writing that I decided to wash some pots whilst my dinner was cooking. DISASTER STRIKES! Whilst washing, a glass breaks in the sink and slices into the back of my hand - nooooo! It looked pretty gross, I could see bone and a vein - ugh. So I grab a tea towel to cover it and stagger upstairs shouting for housemate E for help. She looks at it and looks after me whilst i'm trying not to faint. After some deliberation we decide I don't need A&E just some plasters to stick the flap of skin down. It's hurting like a bastard by this point and I'm thinking i probably can't go out now.
An hour later and I think "sod it, i'm bloody well going out". The wound is killing me but housemates strap a rubber glove to my hand so i can go wash my hair without getting it wet. The next 2 hours of getting ready is super painful, The cut is near my knuckle on my right hand (i'm right handed) so when it bends it really hurts. Applying eyeliner is the most painful part of getting ready. along with trying to straighten my hair. This is when i decide i need alcohol to numb the pain. Vodka here i come! Got pretty pissed by the time we left the house. Had a wicked night out, can't actually remember what i danced to but hey! Managed to stay until the end even with my mis-shapen hand.
The next day it really hurt and a week on its still painful to do some stuff like carry heavy things or twist off bottle tops!
When i got home the boyf tended to me, cleaned it up and managed to make the flap of skin stick down. I'm going to have an ugly scar though.
I think i may have a phobia of washing the pots now.....

Today was the presentation that we have been working for for the last 7 weeks. It's over!! Half and hour never seemed so long but now i have no more work to do! The computer broke near the end which was a bit stressful but as that wasn't our fault we won't lose marks.

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Noone would come out with me tonight so ended up staying in. It isn't as bad as it sounds though as we've made plans to go out tomorrow night instead. This means i have to tell the Boyf i'm not coming home til Friday. I've only been here 1 night anyway! To tell you the truth the boyf has been pretty bad company since Wednesday. Yesterday he worked late and came home well grumpy. I tried to cheer him up by cooking his favourite dinner which worked a bit but he still didn't talk to me much. Went to bed pissed off that he pretty much just fell asleep without even giving me a kiss. I need lovin'!! *sigh* I was a bit short with him this morning but he didn't seem to notice much, just said how much he loves me before he left for work like he does every day but i'm feeling a bit paranoid that the shine might be wearing off. I hope i'm wrong. If he doesn't jump on me for some lovin' when i get back on Friday I'll be really worried!!
Well i'm going now to finish my glass of rank wine (£2.50 for a bottle) and to watch the end of Along Came Polly with housemates.
xx

I have wanted to go out get drunk since I woke up this morning. I haven't been out in ages. On the train back to uni i texted couple of housemates to see if they are up for it but not got a concrete yes out of any of them yet. Texted my best mate from home to see if she will spontaneously hop on the train and come out here with me. No reply yet, she must be at work or something. I think I'll have to go buy some beer and drink at home if noone will come out with me. I feel the need to let go and be drunk. Need to get dressed up and dance around to loud music. I've been listening to music all day as usual but it's making me feel the need to go out even more! Damn Ipod!
Housemate V is my best chance. She is the only one who'll come to the Cockpit with me. My last resort is Oceana where I'm even willing to go to tonight because i'm so desperate to go out!!! So fingers crossed i'll convince someone to get their dancing shoes (or better still, trainers) and come out with me!
*hope* *hope*

UK iTunes sucks compared to the American one. I swapped over and was like "wow". There's so much cool stuff to download. But obviously when I try to download, it says i'm not allowed and re-directs me back to the UK store. LAME!!
Also, there is supposed to be the new single by The Used on there but I can't find it! Maybe the release has been delayed. I checked the American one just incase it was on there and not yet released in th UK but it isn't there either! Dammit!! I've been waiting years for their new album, i can't wait anymore! Need new tunes!!

This is quite amusing....

Yesterday, the boyf and I went to our local Spar to buy Mothers Day cards and chocolates. After being in the store for about 3 minutes, the security guard comes over and asks the Boyf to take down his hood. Now, the boyf does have his hood up - it's snowing outside, but his face is clearly visible AND he is buying his mummy a card and chocolates (not exactly threatening behaviour). The Boyf politely says "No, i'm not going to take my hood down" (he's a big believer in he should be allowed to wear what he likes when he likes to), so the guard says "Ok, but the staff won't serve you". So we say "ok" and carry on browsing the chocs. We go over to the till and the boyf hands over his carefully chosen card and choccies. The woman at the till says "I'm sorry I cannot serve you", like a robot. So the Boyf says "No? Ok then" and passes the card and chocs to me, along with his money. The woman serves me, with the Boyf stoof right there!! WHAT IS THE POINT!!??
Now I want to make it clear that the Boyf was super polite and he isn't at all chav-like. In fact he looks proper rock and roll. Not a shellsuit or stupid giant rude boy hat in sight. What is the reason for this dumb rule? Is it because of CCTV? In which case we should've been removed from the store so that we couldn't steal anything and get away unseen by the cameras. What was the point in asking him to take down his hood then upon refusal just saying "ok then but you won't get served". STUPID PEOPLE!!!
After we left the shop I realised that halfway throught the transaction I should've flipped my hood up!! Ha! That would've caused a dilemma.
It made me kind of mad because if it was for security reasons, the security guard should have made us leave. The fact that the Boyf could stay in the shop but not be served made us think it was purely because of his appearance. Nobs.

God people piss me off.

For fucks sake!

I'm feeling pretty perky and good inside because i've been in to uni today when it's my day off. Went to the computer room and actually did work for about and hour and a half. wow! Went to the bar and sat in the non-smoking section *cough cough*. I'm so good today. I just need to fight the urge to go out later. Promised coursemate i'd be in for 9 tomorrow. I promise this every week and never turn up so i feel i should try this week.

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I think I really want to go out. Problem is I still have the cough of doom. It's probably a really bad idea to go out clubbing because that means i'll get drunk and then I'll smoke. That would be the worst thing for it ever. My plan is to carry on with the new medicine i got yesterday and hope it's gone by 8pm. sigh, i bet it doesn't go away. *coughs*

xx

or insecure or something. Woke up today with a big spot on my face. I just looked so gross that i actually put makeup on it before i went downstairs to make a cup of tea. Oh my god. Only my housemates are in!! What is wrong with me! I swear i look totally gross today.

Speak later, xx

In my case, planning is a waste of time.

I'm planning to go to bed now which probably means i'll go downstairs and talk to housemates until stupid o'clock.
xx

Today I actually managed to get out of bed and to the train station in good enough time to make it to my tutorial this afternoon. Yay me! A positive start to the day.

Spring is almost here. I can't wait! The time for badass shorts and flip flops is on it's way! The worst thing about spring is bugs. I just freaked out because I heard buzzing in my room and a giant GIANT wasp was flying around. I screamed like a nutter and 2 housemates came running to my aid.  Emma wacked the thing and scooped it up for me. Phew!

The house was a complete tip when I got back today. Housemates have obviously had a good time this weekend. I don't like to be too clean and tidy, I have to put up with that enough when i'm home with the boyf, but when there are 4 bin bags full of stinking rubbish in the kitchen, It's time to tidy up. The carpets in our house are gross. We have decided to go ask Landlords for new ones tomorrow. I know we won't get them but we can hope. Worked out they will get £28,000 from us over the 2 years we live here! That's an insane amount of money!! We want new carpets, washing machine, oven, window in Phillipa's room, laminate flooring in bathroom. Not too much to ask for all that cash!

Bye Bye for now x

I've had enough of studying now. I've been at it for over 2 hours. Wow - I'm so dedicated. At least I'll have something to show my group at uni tomorrow. That is if I make it in on time. Got a 2 hour train journey back followed by the bus then the walk. I haven't made it in on a Monday after a weekend at home in a while. Oops. I just can't face going back on a Sunday. Want to stay home with the boyf.

It's another weekend over and done with. I'm feeling quite positive about the week ahead. My cough is loads better today so might actually make it out for drinks at some point this week. Might be going to a house party tomorrow night but will see how the cough is. I can't go out drinking and not smoke - it's terrible. If the cough is still here I will simply have to stay in and stay sober!

I'm going to go now and do a facemask before bed. What a rock and roll life i lead.
Goodnight x

Wow I feel studious for once. Well sort of. Just need a quick break from researching about the hotel industry for my uni project. Think I've found quite a lot of good stuff. I would feel more studious if i had carried out this research 3 weeks ago when the project began! Oh well I have approx 9 days left to complete the work. I seem to work better when the deadline is running out!!
Feel a bit sick from the chocolate buttons I've been scoffing whilst working. The boyf is watching Donnie Brasco. It's one of my favourite films. So far I've done well in ignoring it.
Guess I'd better carry on with it now. Will be back later to report on my day.
Bye for now!

Today I have been mostly couging away like mad. Stupid illness has developed into a hacking cough that I can't shift. I even caved in and bought cough medicine today - and I never buy medicine. It doesn't help that I keep reading about TB coming back. I did have that injection at school though so hopefully I don't actually have TB. I do remember the scab left by the injection leaking a lot because i kept going swimming, maybe all the immunisation stuff leaked out! Surely not....

This week in the life of me has been a strange mixture of fun and absolute boredom/depression.It all started with my birthday on Friday....

Woke up, still felt ill . Had to rush around like crazy to be in town in time for my hair appointment. After 3 hours of colouring, my hair looked almost the same and i was £70 poorer. Almost ran home because it was after 3 o'clock and I knew it was going to take me about 4 hours to get ready! Got to the flat sweating so bad (i think i had a temperature) and in a foul mood. The flat was a tip so spent ages cleaning it up before i finally got into the bath. After that I was a whirlwind of make up, clothes, hair products, fake tan until 3 and a half hours later i emerged looking pretty nice. I'd spent so long getting ready that I didn't have time to eat anything, oh well I'll have an Amaretto and Coke please....

The night was SO much fun, a really good turnout of friends and family and I didn't have to pay for a single drink all night. Almost threw up at one point because of lack of food and a coughing fit after drinking vodka. Ran behind the bar to get to the flat (I live above the bar hosting my party ) but got accosted on the way by my boyfs aunty/landlady who made me drink sambuca (she is very insistent). Finally got up to the flat and made toast which sorted me out and i partied on for a few more hours.
So, Friday night = super fun.
Saturday = wasted day spent in bed.
Sunday = wasted morning, dragged myself out of bed to go eat sunday dinner at boyf's aunt's house, then a trip to my parents feeling really guilty haven't been home in ages.
Monday = boring day spent in the flat playing computer games.
Tuesday = boring day, went out at night to watch shit bands play in a shit venue.
Then came Wednesday....
Oh doom! I told myself I would wake up early and get the Train back to uni. Spent so long messing around watching daytime TV that I never got motivated to go! Felt really lethargic and apathetic. Just sat around staring until the boyf came home from work. He went out and I sat around smoking (even though I have a killer cough) and watching shit TV. Felt so sick of being a student. I spent the whole day wishing that I had a career to go do instead of mooching around and occaisionally studying. Wednesday sucked! Evening came and I promised myself never to spend another day wallowing in boredom. I will wake up early each day (9.30am) and DO something.
My alarm went off at 9.30 today and I slept in til 11.....
TYPICAL!!
I did finally get myself onto the train and went back to uni. Felt guilty the whole way there that I hadn't seen or spoken to my housemates in a week. Luckily, they all seemed normally friendly so I guess they didn't mind my disappearance too much.
I haven't studied in almost 2 weeks! Finally did some work tonight so feel a bit more positive.
I really need to get my act together and stop sitting around doing nothing! This is going to be a turning point for me. I never want another day as pointlessly miserable as wednesday.
It's time for sleep now, tomorrow I'm going to attempt to get up at 9.30 again - i WILL do it!
Can't believe i'm 25.... thank you and goodnight x

So i've only just got out of bed and I'm still feeling ill. This cold had better be gone by tommorrow as it's my birthday and i have big plans for the day and night! I sacrificed my 9 o'clock tutorial for some sleep in the hope the extra hours will help my recovery.
I'm going home for the weekend tonight which i'm excited about. If only i didn't have to get on a bus and 2 trains. Oh well at least it gives me time to listen to my Ipod, it's the best ever invention for long journeys.
Today I plan to pack in as many vitamins as I can. Innocent Smoothies are totally amazing for that. Must remember to pack all of my potential birthday outfits to take home with me. Can't believe I spent the last of my student loan on outfits then panicked when I realised I had no money left to get home and had to call the bank to extend my overdraft. Eek!
Dispite feeling kind of ill i'm actually pretty chipper today! Got some new jeans to wear to uni which is always nice.
Had better get ready to go to uni now. The next time I write in here I'll be 25!! Sigh, it sounds really old to me. Especially as all of my housemates are 19/20, they rock though.

Right, stop rambling and get in the shower!!