.....that today is going to be a lazy day.
I didn't wake up until 11.45 anyway so i'm off to a good start. I was at work till 1am last night so that's my excuse. Also, my throat is still a bit minging so i needed to sleep in to help fix it.
I'm still in my pj's and loving it. Tonight i don't have to work either so Friday night tv it is! Gutted it's the end of Big Brother, now what the hell am i supposed to watch on tv?
The only thing that puts a spanner in my plans of being lazy all day is that fact i need some chicken for my dinner tonight. That means a walk down to Tescos. Which means getting ready, putting make up on etc. Oh well. I guess after that i can just resume my position on the sofa. There are pots to wash too. Dammit. I think i'll go have a shower now then spend some time fake tanning. Always feel better when i'm a nice shade of brown.
This entry was a bit of a ramble. Nevermind! I have no solid plans for today so ramble away it is!

Yesterday i did drag myself out of the flat to go to the gym. I started to regret this decision after in the space of 5 minutes, a guy cycled into me and another guy ran into me! Oh my god i was so fucking fuming! The cyclist wacked me at a crossing - i''m sure the lights were on red but obviously this doesn't apply to people cycling through a busy, mostly pedestrianised area of the city centre. Then just around the corner, a guy running at a million miles an hour (perhaps just robbed someone), hit me full pelt on the arm and carried on as if i was made of air! So i was walking along nursing my hand which hurt from the bike and my arm which hurt fromn the running guy. I was so mad! Then i got onto the bus and it was a million degrees and had to go a long way around some roadwoirks to get out of the city. It put me in a pretty shitty mood for ages. Luckily there weren't too many twats in the gym or i think i would have exploded with rage.
I'm over it today though .

I started to get a sore throat over the weekend and it seems to be hanging on. I stayed in bed till nearly 11 this morning in the hope that extra sleep will fix it. I have to work till 1am tonight which is going to be a beast. I'm also supposed to go to the gym today. I don't feel properly poorly, just a bit off. The Boyf made me eat a horrible chewable vitamin C tablet last night. He said if i didn't eat it then i wasn't allowed to moan to him anymore and he wouldn't look after me. Tough love!

In other news, we have an invasion of bar flies at work. Instead of having a nice leisurely day yesterday i was on a killing mission. I also cleaned like a freak to get rid of anything sticky that they might be feeding on. They kept flying into drinks that i was pouring which is so not a good thing for the customer to see!

In dieting news, after much research i have decided to up my intake of good calories a little at each meal. This should help keep me burning fat now that i am working out more often. Too little calories makes you hold onto fat.
I really should go gym today. It's just hard to motivate when you feel a bit gross and lazy.
Right i'm going to get off my ass and do something now. Bye Bye!

I won't have the stress of them asking me to do a million things!
I work hard and it pisses me off when i'm constantly being told to do stuff that i've either already done or am aware needs doing and was about to do it!
So today should be relatively relaxed. The only thing that could ruin it is the lazy guy that shut down last night as he always does a sloppy job and then i have to do extra cleaning etc. Fingers crossed his ass was in gear last night.

They are killing me today. Loose weights = pain the day after.

On a happier note, i'm going out for a curry tonight! Woop! I thought about having a dry curry because it contains less fat and skipping the naan bread. Then i thought "fuck it", if i'm going to do a curry i'm going to do it properly. I've not had one in nearly 2 months and so i've decided to go all out and enjoy myself. One evening of curry loving isn't going to put 3 inches of fat back on my waist. I'm not going to stress about it i'm just going to chow down. I may even have a couple of Cobra beers. YUM!

I think i'll do some stepper action today to at least get the ol' metabolism fired up to help burn off the curry. God i can't wait. I just hope my stomach hasn't shrank too much or i won't be able to fit all the deliciousness in!

Today is the day of the week where i weigh and measure myself. I am pretty much the same weight/body fat etc as last week which is great. The best news is my waist has slimmed down some more and i am now 3 inches smaller than when i started this diet/exercise plan 7 weeks ago. 3 inches! I am impressed.
I tried some new exercises today with some loose weights. It's a lot different from using the machines at the gym. I really have to concentrate on my whole body being where it should be whilst i use the weights. Have decided to focus on my arms some more and see if i can get rid of some of the flab there.
I have to say my ass is like a rock now! God bless the stepper and the crosstrainer.
I'm hopefully off to a BBQ tonight so may indulge a little bit. Not too much because i'm going out for a curry tomorrow night! My first takeaway curry in 7 weeks. Wow.
I love this exercise lark. Feeling more confident about how i look now. I don't hate my stomach so much when i look in the mirror.

The Boyf is off work today but we haven't thought of anything to do yet. He's got to go walk the dog but then we are freeeeeeeeeee! Although by the time he gets out the shower it'll probably be dinner time. Just kidding.
I think i'll do a workout whilst he's dog walking. We managed to eat a whole roast beef between us last night so probably a good idea to burn some calories today. I've discovered my new favourite snack is cottage cheese on wholemeal toast. Yum. I'm going to start eating a bit of bread again now. Not a lot but some is a good thing i think.

Ugh i've just remembered i've got a staff meeting today. What a waste of time. I'm finishing soon to go back to uni and the meeting is about general laziness and how to deal with underage kids at gigs. I'm not lazy at work and i know how to deal with kids. Take all their vodka and keep it for myself! Haha.
Double ugh, Flatmate has just come home. Haven't seen him since Friday and was hoping he'd be out at the pub all day today. Dammit. We'll definitely have to go out somewhere now. I'm not sitting in with him all day.
Right, the shower has stopped so i take that as my cue to get in there and wash my hair. Then i'm ready for anything.
Have a good bank holiday people!
x

We left the dog at the Boyf's Dad's house late last night so we could sleep in our own bed. This morning the Boyf got up and drove over there to walk him. That was 4 hours ago and i'm still sat here waiting for him to come back! Before he left he said he'd be an hour or so. I always double the time he gives me because he's always late. I thought i'd have 2 hours on my own which was cool because i wanted to do some blogging, shower, fake tan, slap make up on etc. I've done all that and now i'm bored. I'm ready to go into town shopping. Hurry up Boyf!!

I can feel i'm getting in a bit of a bad mood now. Hopefully he'll return soon and be ready to go more or less straight away. I thought i was bad for time keeping but he is bloody crap.

I remember when we first started going out and he said he'd come pick me up at whatever time. He was 2 hours late! I was all made up and sat by the window waiting for his truck to pull into the drive so we could shoot straight off. At the 2 hour late mark i called him and he said he was just leaving. He didn't seem to think it was a big deal! I've now learnt to double any time estimate that he makes. This normally works out spot on. Not today though.

He was really crap with time yesterday. We were supposed to be at a birthday party at 4.30pm and we got there at 7pm!! All because of him farting around. I don't even know how he manages to be so spectacularly late all the time. *sigh*
All the food was gone and people we leaving as we arrived.
I'm going to call him now see what he's doing.

This weekend we are dogsitting for the Boyf's dad's dog. We were supposed to be staying at his house til Tuesday but the Boyf decided that would be boring as hell and something he really didn't want to do on his long weekend off work. So he bought the dog here! Well the cat went mental. He shot out the catflap like lightning. In the end we had to keep the dog shut in the lounge and coax the cat back in with treats. The flat is pretty small, we only have 2 bedrooms, a lounge, bathroom and toilet (we use the pub's kitchen downstairs). To stop flatmate getting up in the morning and letting the dog out, the Boyf decided he would sleep in our bedroom!! Now i'm not a dog person at all. I've never had a pet dog, noone in my family has ever had a pet dog and i'm pretty sure i've never even had friends who had a dog! I don't hate them, in fact this dog is quite nice. I just don't know what to do with them. I don't like it when they jump up at me and lick and drool etc. So i wasn't thrilled with the idea of sleeping with a huge dog in the room. I think he's a Springer Spaniel so he's quite big. We got him to stay in his bed at the foot of our bed and he settled down fine. I fell asleep but woke up twice face to face with the dog staring at me! He made me jump out my skin! I didn't know whether he would try to lick my feet etc if they hung out of the bed so kept myself tucked up in the middle. I was boiling hot all night. Haha.
The Boyf has taken him for a walk now so me and the cat are just chilling. I wonder what further escapades will happen this weekend with a dog in the house. Oh yeah i forgot to mention i also don't like the smell of dog and i've just noticed my hands smell cos i was stroking him earlier. Ew! God i'm so crap with dogs. This will be good training for me as the Boyf wants a dog when we get a house together. *sigh* I hope he doesn't eat me.

I'm going back to bed. I woke up way too early today. I'm so sleepy. I've got work tonight 8pm - 3am so had better sleep before that or i'll die. I've decided i'm not going out again til i go back to uni because i keep getting really drunk and it ruins the day after. I should be doing something fun in the sun today but i'm way too tired to function! At least staying in will stop the Boyf moaning at me. He did come out with me last night but went home way earlier than i did.
Oof i'm going. If i sleep til 4 i should be ok!
Night night x

I feel pretty rank today.
Drank quite a lot last night.
Danced for hours.
Stumbled home on my own past scary graveyard at 2am.
Ate a garlic cheese pizza to myself in bed.
Brushed my teeth.
Fell asleep.

Now i'm waiting to get the energy to go to the shop to buy a cold cold can of sprite. Or 7up. God i'm so thirsty! I've already drank fresh orange, water and tea and i'm still dry as a sponge. Blech is what i feel like. BLECH!!

Over a year ago the Boyf looked after a 5ft 7" Boa Constrictor for a friend. I really didn't want him to because i'm not a huge fan of snakes. In fact they creep me out quite a lot. He looked after it anyway and i tried to be brave. For some ridiculous reason he put the tank in the bedroom against the wall at the foot of the bed. It's owner warned us to put something heavy on top of the hatch or the snake would push it's way out (!!!!!). The Boyf stacked various stuff on top and it seemed to do the job. One night when i was at uni, the snake pushed it's way out and the noise of the stuff falling off the tank woke the Boyf up. Up until he told me this i had already been waking up quite regularly in a state of some panic and looking at the tank to check the snake was still in it. With my being short sighted and the snake blending in with the foliage it used to take me some minutes to spot that the snake was still in there. So you can imagine that after this incident i woke up even more often after having a dream that the snake was on the loose! One morning after the Boyf had left for work and i was asleep all alone i woke up again panicking and scanned the tank for the snake. Well i couldn't see it. I put my glasses on, still couldn't see the fucker. Then i heard stuff moving on the floor on my side of the bed. Well i totally freaked out. I was naked so grabbed some pants and a bath towel and ran screaming hysterically from the room. Flatmate got out of bed and i was screaming and crying "fucking snake has escaped uuuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhh aaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhh" etc. He looked a bit worried too because he also didn't like it. So we shut the bedroom door and left it at that. I called the Boyf and went mental. He was really nice and said he'd come home asap and catch it and that the friend would have to come take it back that night. It turned out that the snake had managed to bend the metal mesh on top of the tank and got out that way!
I still have nightmares about it now. In fact i had one last night which is why i'm writing this post. Thank god we didn't have the cat then or i would've been more worried. Last night's dream involved the snake eating the cat. Ugh. Just awful.

The snake we looked after was as long as i am tall and could easily have squeezed me to death. Yuk! I still cringe about it now just thinking how i was asleep and it was snaking around on the floor. *shudders*
I'm mentally scarred for life!!

Yesterday i went to the opticians and asked to try disposable lenses. I've been wearing hard gas permeables since i was 16 and they are doing my head in! For the last year i can't wear them for more than an hour or so before they cloud over. They have gradually been getting worse for the last few years. Also i am sick to death of cleaning, rinsing and soaking then every night. The optician figured out my tears are weird which is making my lenses cloudy and said this shouldn't happen with soft lenses.
He put some disposables in my eyes yesterday and i wore them home and for the rest of the afternoon and evening. No cloudiness! How exciting! So today is the real test. I'm going to wear them for work. I've been given 5 free pairs to try and have an appointment to go back and see how they are suiting my eyes before i buy any. They are way bigger than my hard lenses and you have to pinch them off your eye to get them out which is a bit strange. It took me a few go's to get them out last night but i reckon it'll just take practice.
I feel like blogging about this because contact lenses are such a major part of my life and i've been miserable for ages because i can't see properly and have to wear glasses. Most days when i wear my glasses i feel like a right frump! They are nice ones but i just love contacts, eye make-up looks so much better when it's not behind glass! So i'm crossing my fingers and hoping today i can see clearly and comfortably all day long. I'll be gutted if these ones cloud over. In fact i think i'll be so mad i'll probably rip my eyeballs right out of my head. Haha.
x

I'm such a lazy today. I had an optician's appointment at 9.45 but called them from my pit to rescedule as i was just too sleepy and comfy in the bed! Obviously i didn't tell them that was the reason. I'm so bad at getting up early. If i have to go to work then i'll get up but that's about the only thing that will move me when i'm sleeping.
Going to the gym this lunch time. Have been eating a bit randomly again this week. I hope it hasn't had too much of an effect on my body. I'm sure all the poilsh grub that i ate on sat night wasn't low fat. Pasta stuffed with potato! Mmm carbs! *drools*. Today i'm focused again.

I went out for my friend's birthday last night. The Boyf was invited but doesn't really care for said friend very much and so said he didn't want to come. Fair enough. The meal was at 7pm so i left the flat leaving the Boyf in a bad mood because he was going to be on his own on a Saturday night. I told myself it wasn't my fault that he was being grumpy so i just got on with it and went out to have a good time. Well one thing leads to another and we end up getting pretty drunk and i crawled home at 3.30am. The Boyf was really pissed off. I woke him up because it's nearly impossible to get ready for bed in the same room and not wake him and he was mad with me because i wouldn't turn the light off when i got into bed. I needed the light on so the room wouldn't spin! He disappeared (probs to the sofa) and i passed out. When i woke up this morning he was next to me so must've got back in at some point but now he isn't speaking to me! I don't think i've been a terribly bad girlfriend for going out for my friend's birthday! I rang him when we got to town to see if he wanted to join us for drinks because some of the guys that he is friends with were coming but he said he didn't want to come out. At least i offered! I hate it when he's like this. I find it really hard to know what to say to him. I know he just wants to spend time with me but i can't be glued to him permanantly. Friends and socialising are a huge part of my life. He has changed so much in the last 2 years. When we first got together we would go out drinking and dancing all the time. Now he isn't interested. Again fair enough but don't have a go at me when i decide i'm going out. I still enjoy going out getting drunk. I don't even go out as often as i used to. It's not like i'm some kind of crazy party animal that gets wasted all the time. *sigh*
I hope his mood improves soon. i can't deal with this all day long.

Nearly 4 weeks ago now I was bitten by what i think was a mosqito. I got 3 bites on my legs and 1 on my back. The one on my calf has spread out into a purple rash about 4cm in diameter - it looks hideous. The other bites are still lumpy, purple and itchy as hell. Yesterday i had a look on the NHS Direct website and it said there that if a rash starts to spread out from the bite you should see a doctor. I rang my surgery and asked the receptionist if she thought i should see a doctor. She said yes and booked me in for Monday afternoon but said i should go to the NHS walk-in centre asap and if i get seen there to cancel my appointment with the doctor.
So last night after work the Boyf kindly drove me to the centre. I get there and go to reception and say "hi, i'd like to see someone about some insect bites that i have". The nurse looked unimpressed and said "Are you weezing?". I said no and explained that they had been there for nearly a month and all the info on their website said i should see a doctor. I had to get my leg out at the desk and when the nurse looked at it he said it was fine and i should put a cold compress on it and elevate it. I explained that i had been doing this for a month now and i was just worried that it may be infected or something.

Basically they looked at me like i was an over-reacting idiot and gave me a small leaflet that contained even less info than i had already read on the NHS website and told me to go home. Fair enough if there's nothing they can do but i only went there because the website said that i should! I felt a bit miffed to be honest. I guess they must have seen a million bites this summer and are sick of them. But still! Mine looks awful! Everyone that i've shown it to gasps in horror.
The worst thing is it totally fucks up my outfit plans for this evening.  Bastards! (mosquitos, not the nurses!)

I've just agreed to work tonight because someone can't come in to work. WHY!! Why did i say yes? I don't want to go to work. I know why i did say yes, it's because it's my Boyf's family that own and run this place so i can't say no to them. *sigh*
"it's only 8 til 12, you'll be saving our asses"
Well actually it's not only 8 til 12, it's 8 til 1am because we shut at 12 then i have to kick everyone out and clean upstairs and down which takes an hour. Grr. AND i'll have to be the person in charge. AND there will be only 2 of us working. AND we're both girls so i hope there's no trouble.

For fuck's sake i'm too nice and helpful. I want to stay home watch tv.
Ugh i really don't feel like smiling at drunk people.

I'm back and i have some new jeans!!
I did NOT buy them from Primark. What a load of shit. I went in there with an open mind thinking beggars can't be choosers and picked up 5 pairs of jeans in my size that looked semi-ok. Well when i tried them on they looked fucking awful!! They were badly made and just gross gross GROSS! I tried my best i really did but i couldn't wear them in public they were the most unflattering jeans i have ever put on. They were amazingly low priced and maybe they suit other people better than me so i can't knock that. Definitely not for me though.
So i decided to try Zara. I LOVE ZARA!! I got a perfect fitting lovely pair of jeans for £19. Bargain! They are nice and stretchy, tight at the thighs and slightly bootcut. I'm going to turn them up and team them with my heels for the birthday meal on Saturday night. Should look hot.
I nearly got drawn in by buy one get one free on 2 horribly fitting tops in H&M but resisted after trying them on for the second time and realising that smock stylee tops make me look pregnant. The mirrors in H&M make me look disgusting. I don't know what it is about them but they seem to accentuate all of my fat. I bent over with my top off and i swear the rolls of fat looked even worse than i had thought they did before. Depressing. Glad i look nice with my clothes on or i really would cry. Better keep covered up haha!
I'm going to put my new jeans on now and dance around til the Boyf gets home. yay!

I need some new jeans desperately. Only problem is i'm skint! I'm so desperate that today i'm actually going to go and look at the jeans in Primark. *gasp*
I'm going out for a friend's birthday on Saturday and she's asked me to "dress up" which to me means wearing shoes. I want some cropped jeans or a pair that can be rolled to go with my heels and a nice top. I only have £30 spare cash this week and so obviously i'm not going to be able to buy a nice pair. I'm thinking brave Primark and if i can find a bargain pair which i could cut the label off (if you haven't guessed, i kind of have a problem with Primark) and maybe customise a bit. The next cheapest place that i can think of is H&M but their jeans are about £30 which leave me no money to buy my friend a card and a small gift. Ugh being poor sucks! Give me my student loan now!!

My job is boring me to tears at the moment. For those of you that don't know, I work in a bar/live music venue which by night is pretty fun to work in and lively. By day, it's BORING!!! Oh my god i had hardly any customers today and over the course of the summer i've cleaned the whole place so besides boring every day chores there is fuck all to do. I've taken to reading magazines and a newspaper left daily by one of the old regulars. I've even started doing the Sudoku puzzles in the paper which were difficult to begin with but now i've figured out how to do it, it only takes me minutes to complete one. AARGH! I almost can't wait for the summer to be over so i don't have to work anymore! How sad is that?! I could ask for more evening shifts but they are bad for me because i go to bed early hours of the morning and so am useless the next day. *sigh* I can't win. Still, i suppose there are worse places to work. I shouldn't complain really as half of the young rock population of Nottingham seem to want to work here. Oh well!

Moan over now. Must think of the perks, staff drinks and seeing lots of bands play. I'm going deaf..... dammit.

The weigh-in showed no change in weight or fat percentage yesterday. I'm not too bothered by it because i'm still happy with how i'm firming up and feeling better in general. This week i'm going to try my best and see if i can shift some girth from my middle. That had also stayed the same this time.
So it's time to focus and avoid the temptation of sweet treats! I've pretty much given up cheese, bread, chocolate, chips and fizzy pop. These were all staples of my diet before.

I can't believe how fast the weeks are flying by. It'll soon be time for me to go back to uni.
Today i'm going to the gym with BM again. I've got my amazing new gym trousers to wear too so should feel pretty cool in them!
It's weigh-in day again so tonight will see if i've lost any more fat, should be interesting as this week is week 6 of the diet so maybe the fat loss is slowing down now. I can't tell if i'm any more toned by looking this week. I have noticed my legs are firmer though. They have always been really skinny but now they are looking more defined and less like twigs! The stepper must be working it's magic.
I'd better get a move on now so goodbye and i'll probably report back later with stats from the weigh-in!

Today we slept in a bit and for some reason this caused me to start the day with a giant headache. I really don't know what's going on with my bodyclock but i used to be able to sleep in for England. Nowadays i seem to wake up early (note: early for me is 9.30am), and have to get up! I still go to bed at the same time but have lost my ability to sleep all day. It's obviously a good thing because i have a whole half a day more to do stuff in!
The Boyf is watching a movie but i can't be bothered to focus on it so i've been pottering around doing random stuff. Later on we are supposed to be going over to our friend's house for a bit. Should be fun although i don't know what we are going to do when we get there.

The rain sucks today but i've just tanned my legs so i'm wearing a mini skirt today no matter what! It's still pretty warm so i won't look like a freak outside.
Off i go to slap some makeup on. Bye bye!

Apparently it's a great source of protein. So today i bought a jar. I've never tried it before, just presumed that i wouldn't like it. YUM!! It's really nice! Ok so it's totally calorific so i can only have small amounts but it's low in saturated fat and is supposed to help make you feel satiated. I also bought a packet of Rich Tea biscuits as a substitute for Digestives. They are half the calories per biscuit. I smeared some of the peanut butter onto a Rich Tea and it was awesome. *drools* I also tried it on a ryvita which was quite nice. I could totally eat that for a snack. The only problem is i ate so much of the PB that it took up all my calories for 1 of my 6 meals of the day and so i couldn't have my protein shake as normal. I think seeing as i'm at work tonight i'll have an earlyish dinner and a shake before i start work at 8pm to help me through the night. So i'm on track for a good day! I even did some lower abs exercises this morning which i hope will strengthen the area and pull my pot belly in a bit. Hopefully the PB protein is feeding these muscles as i write this!
I hope the Boyf likes the PB as he's a fussy eater and needs more calories at the moment to supplement his exercise regime. I also got him some porridge to try. I'm thinking of buying a tub of natural flavour protein powder to mix into the porridge. This is supposed to be a good idea. According to my reading around the subject of dieting for women, apparently we don't get enough protein in our diets and it's important when dieting because otherwise i'll end up looking skinny and gaunt rather than slim and toned. Yay for protein.
xx

We don't have a garden here at the flat. Just the roof of the pub to go out onto which i love because it's quite high and you can look down onto the city. We've got a bench/table thing out there and in the sun it's lovely and hot.
I've just got back from town and flung open the door only to discover the fat man from next door has come out of the skylight on his part of the roof and is sunbathing half naked. *shudder*. Not only is he fat and gross to look at but he's also a "weirdo". I know this for sure because i've spoken to him before. There's something not right about him. To make matters even worse i hung my washing out earlier and he is laying in the shadow of all my pants! God i hope he doesn't steal a pair! Now i'm scared to go outside because he might start talking to me. I wish he'd piss off. Ugh. Maybe we should build a fench across the roof! Not practical i'm afraid. *sigh*
I wonder if he likes loud rock music? I think that's a bit immature of me really but i want to go out and sunbathe in scanty clothes. Perhaps i can get the cat to go piss on him. He pisses on everything else.
GO AWAY FAT MAN!!

I'm off to the gym again today. Best Mate is coming too which is great. She's been with me every time since she started it up which i'm proud of. I thought she might take some more persuasion to attend on a regular basis. I'm going to attempt to use the cross trainer today. I've only been on it once and it totally freaked me out. It's the arms going with the legs thing. I guess it takes practice then feels like a normal movement! BM knows how to do it so she's gonna tutor me!

My gym clothes (which are really just an old t-shirt and tracky bottoms) seriously need updating. The Boyf has kindly offered to take me shopping on Sat and treat me to some new ones.

Right it's Special K time! Bye Bye!

.....that i've lost weight/fat!
It's week 5 of my diet and things are going well. I feel loads thinner around the middle. Yesterday an old friend said that i'd lost weight. I was like "yes!! 4 pounds!" and then he laughed like 4 pounds is nothing! How rude! Excuse me but when you only weighed 8st 11 and a bit to begin with, 4 pounds is a lot! I've also lost 2 inches from my middle now. Feel quite a bit more toned from my trips to the gym and have to say i'm radiating health from all the lovely food that i've been eating. A couple of people also commented on Thursday night that i looked thinner. So yay! It's all going to plan. Just need to stick with it and not give in to cravings for junk. I find it harder when i'm with my friends and they all go buy sweets or pizza etc. I LOVE pizza! It also loves to stick as fat on my stomach so no more of that thanks. The way that i look at it is i've had 25 years of eating everything that i've wanted to whenever i wanted it and so now it has to stop. I realise that it's going to take a while to reverse all the crap that i've eaten so am in it for the long haul. I don't think i'll have to be this strict forever, the odd sweet treat isn't going to make a massive difference once i've toned up.
So this is the new healthy me!