So earlier I wrote that I'm worried tonight one of my housemates might be wanting to stay with one of her other friends in Revolution rather than leaving at 11pm to go somewhere else with me for my birthday celebrations.
Well Facebook is adding to my suspicions! She has written on the other birthday girl's wall that she can't wait for dancing tonight. Well thanks a lot seeing as she hasn't said anything to me about tonight yet!
Maybe it's because it's the other girl's actual birthday today so it was just part of a birthday message.
I hope people don't start deciding that they are going to stay in Rev's and leave me! We have the same group of friends so could be a problem. I just don't know anymore .

I have faith that housemate VM won't skank me and so at least we'll have a fun time if the others fuck me off.
Well i'm off to the shops now to buy bin bags and toilet roll seeing as everyone else in this bloody house won't think to buy any until we're desperate.
Feeling a bit homesick and yearning for my home friends a lot right now!

My feelings about my Leeds birthday night out have been up and down ever since 2 of my housemates fell out with me about a night out I planned without inviting them straight away. I can't really put my finger on why because we have made up since then.
Last night one of them asked me what time we were going out to which i replied "early!!" as this had always been my plan. Then she said "oh - well i'ts just I can't afford to drink out all night so maybe we could stay here til late and go out about 10pm?"
This has pissed me off a bit because I want to go out at 8.30 and drink some nice cocktails til about 11 then off to a club which I know is dirt cheap. I can see her point about the expense but I can't help feeling that it's my birthday and people should do what I want to! Anyway I compromised and we are going out at 9.30 now. This is the same housemate who wouldn't bend last wednesday and come to an indie club which meant all of us stayed in. I feel like she is always the one who has the deciding vote. *sigh*

The annoying thing is I really get on with her and when we go out we have a good laugh and a dance. I just wish she would be a bit more accomodating sometimes. I have been to countless dance clubs because that is what she loves when I love rock and alternative music. Only one of my housemates has been to an alternative night with me. For two years i've been going where everyone else wants to go.

Which brings me onto my next concern about tonight.

We are going to Revolution first which is going to be dancy/pop music (which I do like sometimes!) then off to an alternative night. I have a feeling that difficult housemate will try and drag out the time in Rev so there is less time in the rock club. I want to leave Rev at 11pm so we get 3 hours in the other place. I really hope she doesn't. I also have a feeling she will stay there because it is someone else's birthday tonight and they are staying in Rev's for the evening.

Oh god i'm really nervous tonight is going to be a disaster. I wish my friends from home were coming but they are all grown-ups with jobs that they couldn't get time off from

I'm having a birthday-night-out-outfit trauma. I bought a new skirt today which when teamed with my super-cool t-shirt is too dark and makes me look like a goth. I also am not feeling the t-shirt as much as i did yesterday. I also don't know whether to wear my new fishnet stylee tights or bare legs. I'm also not convinced my shoes are as nice as i thought. In short i'm stressing!
I think the root of the problem may lie in the fact that when i tried all the possible combinations of clothes on earlier I had hardly any make-up on, scratty hair, glasses and no tan. I'm hoping that when i'm all dolled up tomorrow i'll put the clothes on and feel amazing. *crosses fingers* Otherwise i'm screwed.

I'm going out in Leeds tomorrow night as part of my birthday celebrations. It's not my birthday til Sunday but i'm a fun-loving kinda girl so decided to go out twice! This way I get to celebrate with my Leeds friends and my Nottingham friends.
Today i've been into Leeds and bought a new skirt, eyeshadow and eyeliner. I'm all set to fake tan myself later today and do my nails. I've got a load of 18 inch hair extensions which i've painstakingly sewed clips onto so they slot into my hair easily. I love making an effort for special occasions!
I just hope everyone gets into the spirit of things as i'm taking them to a rock night. No more Oceana!!

I've been toying with the idea of putting some pics of me up on here for a while. I've come to the conclusion it's way funner to remain anonymous so here are some pics of me that don't give the game away.

Pic 1: i'm the blonde curly one

Pic 2: i'm the one on the left (we clearly didn't want our photo taking that day)
Pic 3: kind of obvious really

Today I had quite a few errands to run which meant I had to walk round Headingley in a big circle. My bag kept getting heavier as I accumulated stuff and I think I must've had a pretty good workout! Now I feel a bit tired and can't be bothered to open the books that I carted all the way back from the library.
I'm starting driving lessons again on saturday and I wonder if when I finally pass my test and get a car i'll walk as much as I do now. I hope so because it's pretty much the only exercise I do at the minute! I can't actually imagine driving around on my own. I'm pretty nervous about saturday's lesson. I've had a TON of lessons about 3 years ago but I gave it up when I ran out of money and went away to uni. Towards the end I stopped enjoying it and actually started to get a bit scared of driving which is weird.
I have to learn because all the jobs i'm applying for say I need to. I actually don't want to drive ever. I have to get out this negative frame of mind about it or i'll never learn. I wish public transport was awesome then i'd just take the bus everywhere. You just cannot rely on it to get you anywhere on time ever though so no good for getting to work everyday.

I am so sick of uni life. I can't wait to finish and get a job!! I'm enjoying the work but i'm sick of leaving the Boyf and trekking back to Leeds on the train every week. I'm also getting sick of my housemates. It's been great fun since we moved in together at the start of the second year. However, the past 2 weeks have shown that we are perhaps becoming less nicey nicey to each other. I've discovered that noone will come out with me where I want to go! I'm so sick of trendy nightclubs, I want to go somewhere a bit alternative for a change. But NO!! Noone will come with me. I'm pretty sick of it all to be honest. I want to move back to Notts for good, shack up with the Boyf forever and go out with my friends who have the same tastes in nightlife as me. Also my friends here are so much more laid back and spontaneous. I guess it might be because they are all older than my housemates. I was supposed to go back to Leeds on sunday night but here i am still in notts. I'm going back tonight

Looking on the bright side of things, i've got 2 job interviews for when i graduate and I've booked my Florida holiday. Roll on the 28th August!!

It's all going wrong. I've been sat here for 10 years trying to cover this stupid spot near my nose. It's so bad i actually think i may have to stay in. I don't know why i've got such bad skin now i'm 25. It's not fucking fair. I do everything i can to look after it and nothing seems to really work. Last time i went to get my pill i asked the doctor if i could try one that would help my skin and she dismissed the idea saying she couldn't see anything wrong with it! That's because i spent about an hour putting on make up before i go there which i told her and she ended up recommending a mild acne cream. It has helped a bit but i still look disgusting. Really upset about this. I can't face Leeds city centre with all the trendy looking gorgeous people when i look like this. How fucking depressing.

I've had quite a shit week by my standards. It started on sunday night when the trains were all fucked up and it took me hours to get back to Leeds. Then Tuesday managed to upset 2 of my housemates by not inviting them out at the same time as another housemate so they said they felt left out. PN in particular was really annoyed/upset and we both ended up crying. Felt really down since then. Yesterday was shitty because PN went out with some other friends and although she did invite us all to go (well i guess she had to after tuesday's saga) she made ME feel left out and i ended up staying in. On top of all this i feel really emotional in general and miss the Boyf terribly. So today i awoke and i think i need to do something to cheer myself up.
I think we are all going out tonight and i thought i could do with some new boots to go out in. So i may go shopping for some! I've done a fair bit of uni work whilst i've been holed up depressed in my room. Perhaps i should get out there and shop.
I've reviewed my budget and i'm not doing bad at all, there is room in it for footwear.
I think it's settled then. Shop, then home to do a bit more work, then go out in hopefully a hot pair of boots. I'm feeling a tiny bit better just thinking about it.