It's all going wrong. I've been sat here for 10 years trying to cover this stupid spot near my nose. It's so bad i actually think i may have to stay in. I don't know why i've got such bad skin now i'm 25. It's not fucking fair. I do everything i can to look after it and nothing seems to really work. Last time i went to get my pill i asked the doctor if i could try one that would help my skin and she dismissed the idea saying she couldn't see anything wrong with it! That's because i spent about an hour putting on make up before i go there which i told her and she ended up recommending a mild acne cream. It has helped a bit but i still look disgusting. Really upset about this. I can't face Leeds city centre with all the trendy looking gorgeous people when i look like this. How fucking depressing.

I've had quite a shit week by my standards. It started on sunday night when the trains were all fucked up and it took me hours to get back to Leeds. Then Tuesday managed to upset 2 of my housemates by not inviting them out at the same time as another housemate so they said they felt left out. PN in particular was really annoyed/upset and we both ended up crying. Felt really down since then. Yesterday was shitty because PN went out with some other friends and although she did invite us all to go (well i guess she had to after tuesday's saga) she made ME feel left out and i ended up staying in. On top of all this i feel really emotional in general and miss the Boyf terribly. So today i awoke and i think i need to do something to cheer myself up.
I think we are all going out tonight and i thought i could do with some new boots to go out in. So i may go shopping for some! I've done a fair bit of uni work whilst i've been holed up depressed in my room. Perhaps i should get out there and shop.
I've reviewed my budget and i'm not doing bad at all, there is room in it for footwear.
I think it's settled then. Shop, then home to do a bit more work, then go out in hopefully a hot pair of boots. I'm feeling a tiny bit better just thinking about it.